Spending time at night with Zachary\
is something very special. Often I am very tired when Zachary is going to bed but when I linger around for a few moments he usually starts to talk about China. Some days he will sing in Chinese and other times he has gone off talking in long phrases or sentences in Chinese. Today he spotted a little teddy bear/blankie that has satin on the back. It was in a little bin by his bed. Since there were several books on top of the teddy Zachary must not have seen it before tonight. It was the little bear that I sent along with Amy a couple of months before we "got Zach". His eyes really lit up and he smiled as if to recognize the bear. I must have put it in the suitcase the day we got Zachary in China and I hadn't pulled it out to give back to him. Poor kiddo.

Well, he told me that Shoo Shoo gave it to him. Shoo Shoo means "uncle" in Chinese and that was the man that spent a lot of time with him. I asked Zachary if Shoo Shoo said that it was from Zachary's momma gan babba (mommy and daddy). He smiled and said yes yes! Zachary indicated to me that he slept with it. Right now he is sleeping with his little bear once again. : )

Earlier today he saw his drum that he had when we first met him. He was full of smilies and said Lai Lai's. I said yes it was. Then he rubbed his hands on his pants and asked where they were. I told him that the pants and shirt he wore in China when we met him were up in his room. He quickly took off running over to his room and I showed him. Then it was Q and A for me. I asked him about the morning of his coming to us. He smiled and rubbed his head (which means to us shower or bath) and tried to tell me more. I asked him if he knew that he was going to meet his mommy and daddy and he said yes yes (with a big smile). I asked him if he is happy and he smiled and said yes.

I can't wait for the day when he can tell me more about China and his past. There is so much I want to know!! I just have to make sure that I have the time to hang around beside his bed even more when we talk about his past because he usually wants to hang on to me longer as if he seems to need some extra love and "security" that I will always be there for him. It has got to be tough to trust again. I am thrilled that he is allowing himself to do it again.